Death Sets Among Us

Yesterday I received the call that I was dreading.  One of my best friends husband's had passed away.  He had been fighting a rare lung disease for 4 years and his heart gave out on him.  He had been in he hospital for over almost a week and a half.  He had been on a ventilator when he first went into the hospital because he had spotted breathing and the ambulance crew vented him.  They took him off the vent a week ago Tuesday and he was breathing on his own.  Making improvements.  Setting in a chair.  Talking to his wife, kids and family. 

Than this Tuesday he took a turn for the worse.The doctor's on Tuesday gave him 5 to 7 more days. He was able to talk with his kids and tell them how much he loved them.  How proud he was of them and that he would not be around much longer.  Yesterday he left this world.  My friend will never have his arms around her again.  Never hear his voice.  Never know that his is there for her when she needs him.  Nothing can replace that emptiness. 

She is surrounded by her family right now so she doesn't need me at the moment.  But I will be there whenever she does.  Her Mom is a wonderful person and went through this loss two years ago (almost to the day).  So she will be a great comfort to her daughter.  

I cried in R's arms as I thought about her and her loss.  I told R that my life would be over without him.  I wouldn't know how to go on. 

So now I wait for news from her as to the arrangements and what she needs me to do.  I'll continue to cover for her at work (yes, she's my boss also but they've both been our friends for over 20 years).  I know that I have to keep things going at work so she doesn't have to worry about that area of her life.  I just wish there was more I could do.  I wished there was more I could do when he was alive but he refused a transplant and the insurance wouldn't cover it.  He didn't want to leave his family destitute because of his medical issues.

I know we all are heading forward death but I don't like it when it takes someone close to me. 

Death sets among us

Waiting to pick us off

There is no rhythm or reason

For whom he takes from your life

It could be you or the one you love the most

It could be a friend and your friends most beloved

Remember he lurks in the back ground day and night

Waiting patient to take them away from you

Or  you way from them

Death sets among us waiting for his que

Merry Christmas or Happy Chanukah

I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas or Happy Chanukah.  We will be having a quiet Christmas Eve as R has to work.  Then we'll be spending Christmas Day with my parents.  We really enjoy spending the day with them as no one else in the family comes over so it is just the four of us and it is very relaxing.

R already has his main gift (an IPhone) and is happily learning to use it.  He finally gave up his 6 or 7 year old razor.  I think he will really enjoy the phone once he gets use to it.  Of course, he has already yelled at me for texting him.  I told him just because I text doesn't mean he has to look at it right then.  He was driving at the time (like I'm a mind reader and knew that at the time).  He called me on the land line and yelled at me (cussed at me actually and I hung up on him).  He apologized when he got home.  And no I didn't get a spanking for hanging up on him because he knew he was wrong for cussing at me.

I already have my main gift also.  Yes, I know we are a couple of little kids that can't wait to unwrap our gifts.  R bought me a Kindle Fire.  I love it but  then I loved my Kindle 2 and Kindle 3 also.  So now R wants my Kindle 3.  I haven't given it up yet.  It is lighter weight then the kindle fire so in certain times it would be easier to carry and R doesn't read as much as he use too. 

I don't know what else is under the tree. Okay, I do know what a few things are because I bought them for myself and handled them to R to wrap.  Just little things like PJ's.  Need those when we go visit his family, don't think they would appreciate our joy of sleeping in the nude.  LOL

My friends husband has improved so that is the best Christmas gift of all.  

Have a wonderful holiday season. 

The week before Christmas and all was not quiet

It has been a very stressful week so far.  R's Uncle passed away Saturday and he went to the funeral yesterday. I didn't go with him because my best friends husband is in the hospital on a ventilator and my not make it.  His wishes are not to be on a ventilator, so she is left with a very tough choice-follow his wishes or not. 

So yesterday she did it, they took him off the ventilator.  I waited and waited for her to call.  I really wanted to be there with her but she needed me to be taking care of some other things for her, so I was doing as she asked.  Finally she called he was breathing on his own.  He even spoke to her a little.  He'll have to be on stronger oxygen when he gets home and hospice will have to be there ever day with him but hopefully he will be home soon.  He has a terminal lung disease so he will never get better. 

I was so worried that she was going to lose him.  I know she has been preparing for the day it happens but it came very close this time and no matter how much you think you are prepared, you never are prepared for the death of a loved one. 

So please cherish the ones you love and even the ones you don't.  I know I'll be holding R closer to me this holiday season as he is the only gift I need.

Merry Christmas, Happy Chanukah and Happy New Year!

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Weird happening at Vanilla party

So Saturday night we're about ready to leave the party.

We're standing with my sister-in-law and brother-in-law and the gentleman walks up to us.  He looks directly at me and starts says, The masochist says to the Sadist, "Beat me, beat me."  The Sadist says to the masochist, "No." Lucky at this point someone else walked up and joined us, so nothing was else was said.

It was very weird and distributing.  I just looked at the guy with wide eyes and moved closer to R.

The next morning I asked R about it and he said it was a really old joke.  I told him I thought it was weird that this guy that we didn't know would walk up to us and tell it.  And that he was looking at me the whole time he did it.  I still feel very uncomfortable when I think about it. 

I wonder it he has been at a function we have attended but most of them are small enough that we would have recognized him (all except the auction we attended recently).

Spanking Party

Last night we went to a spanking party.  There was a demo about Birching and its history.  That Sudan still uses Birching as a punishment today.  After the history lesson, the (I'll call him the instructor) had a demo doll (just love that term) come up on the stage and he showed how a Birching would have happened back in the day.  She received 10 strokes plus 2 more for being late for the demo.  LOL  It was very interesting but I would not want to be smacked with Birch.  You could hear pieces of the birch breaking off each time it landing on her backside.

Before and After the demo there was a pot luck.  And the dungeon was open for play after the  demo.  There were also door prizes to be given away later in the evening.  R was looking forward to bending me over and smacking my backside but there were a lot of people so the dungeon was very busy.  After several hours of socializing and watching, R took me to a corner and bent me over a table (he got tired of waiting for a station to open up). 

Since he had spanked me the day before and normally there are several days between spankings, I really felt it when his hand landed on my backside.  I think he enjoyed this fact.  Actually, I know he did because he laughed.  Evil laugh.  After he had fun using his hand, paint stick, cane, flogger and then his hand again.  He let me up and laughed again.  I think he is really starting to like this DD stuff or at least the spanking part. 

When the raffles for the door prizes started (there were lots of prizes), R won a Ratton Cane (provided by Mistress Deborah, she owns a wonderful store here in the area).  Of course, R wanted to try it out.  Ouch, it is even snapper than his favorite one.  It's longer and more flexible.  He got a few ouches and lots of wiggles out of me. 

It was a wonderful evening.  We have another party tonight but it is very vanilla so I think R will leave the canes at home.  Or at least I hope so.  Life is good and we are really enjoying our time together even more now than any time before.

Collar

R gave me a diamond necklace on my 40th birthday that I always wear but he removed it Saturday night so that he could put a leather collar on me for the auction.  I had talked with him about wanting to feel more secure when we were there, if he were to leave me alone, so people would know that I was taken.  Since it wasn't only going to be the normal crowd of people but the auction was open to other groups in the area (a swingers group was one of them - I didn't want any confusion that I or we were interested ). 

When we went to bed he removed the leather collar but did not put the diamond back on me.  Since it was after 2 in the morning, I think we both just were to tired to remember.  I didn't think about it on Sunday but Monday when I was a work I kept reaching for my necklace.  I felt naked without it.  Like a part of me was missing.  Although, it is not a traditional slave or submissive (or DD) symbol, the diamond necklace is to us, my collar.  As soon as I got home, I ran upstairs got it and handed it to R.  Life felt right after it was around my neck again. 

Fetish Auction

Saturday night we went to a Fetish Auction.  We love auctions and have gotten most of our furniture from them.  It's nice having a relative who owns an upholstery shop and we refinish the wood ourselves.  But, of course, while their was a few pieces of furniture there, it was not the normal sofa or chair but a St. Andrew's Cross, a stockade, a gynecologist table and a few more pieces of "furniture".  Then there was a whole lot of other kinky items.  It was a live auction and a silent auction at the same time.  The money raised went to a charity.  It was great fun and over $6000.00 was raised for a good cause.

We bid on several items but were out bid on all of them.  We tried but had our budget set.  We did end up buy an item from another couple after the auction.  They had bid on a gift basket and one of the items in the basket they didn't want and it was something I had wanted a lot.  R knows how much I love purses (almost as much as I love shoes) so the auction had several bustier purses in the silent auction.  I thought we were the winning bidder on at least one of the them but someone did a last minute bid and we lost out.  But R got me on in the end.  I'm going to carry it to work today.  Should be a fun day.  I just love it.

We stayed until 1 am and were really hungry so headed home but stopped at one of the only places opened at that time of the morning McDonald;s and got some ground clown.  (Yes, R calls it ground clown and has for so long that now I do too). 

I didn't get a public spanking Saturday night but R made up for it Sunday night.  He got out the other canes to try them out again and decided he did like the next size up.  Got a big reaction out of me.  Now I don't know if I want to order more canes for him for Christmas (or is it really a gift for me?)

This coming weekend we have a spanking party Friday night and a vanilla Christmas party Saturday night.  Plan to just relax on Sunday.

Hope everyone had a great weekend.  I know I did.