My Sister's betrayal

So I asked my sister several times if I could help in any way with the wedding and always got the same response. "No, there's nothing that you can do". So she posts on FB how she couldn't have pulled off the wedding without my brother and his loving wife.

Now let me tell you about my brothers so called loving wife. She calls my brother every name in the book and then some. She doesn't clean house. She adopted my brothers daughter from his first marriage a year after they got married (she was 13 at the time) and then told her she should go out and "Fuck whoever you want". Now you tell me what kind of "Mother" tells a 13 year old to do that? She is still verbally abuse to my niece (who is 24, married and has a child of her own now). My niece can't stand her. This so called loving person uses her two sons against my niece if she doesn't do something she wants her to, she won't allow her to see her brothers. She treats my parents the same way. I was smart and cut off contact with them several years ago, except on the rare family gatherings (Easter, Thanksgiving, Christmas) and if I can get out of those I will this year. And this is the person my sister choose over me to help with my niece's wedding.

I copied what my sister wrote and sent it to R. We talked about it when I got home and he told me I couldn't tell her to F off. I really want to do it. I'm tired of her hurting me. And yes, I know I am the one allowing her to do it. So it stops now. I will no longer allow it. My sister you no longer have power over me. You will not hurt me again. I don't have to see you ever again. I don't have to allow you into my life. I don't have to give you the power to hurt me. I take it back. I banish you from my life. Don't come crying to me when you want something as you always do. Go away be gone.

I sure wish it were that easy but I'm sure going to try to remove her from my life. Wish me luck. Why can't we divorce our families or can we?

The Wedding

My niece looking like a princess. Her gown was beautiful. She was radiant and her groom was very handsome. They make a wonderful couple. His ex-step Mom paid for the rehearsal dinner and their honeymoon.

I'm so happy for her so deserves to be happy and I hope they both have committed to a lasting marriage.

Not much else to say about the wedding. I don't want the negative things to mar the beauty of her day so I'll put that on another post.

The camping trip

So we're back from the camping trip. Learned a lot, saw a lot (somethings I really didn't want to see). Sometimes just because some place is clothing optional doesn't mean you should take your clothes off. I got brave on took my top off at the beach, nope the bottoms stayed on. R did strip down to his skin for the first time in his life. He enjoyed the water. If we go again, we'll be sure to take water noodles or floats of some kind.

The demos were interesting. R and I decided we are not into biting, thank but no thanks. And while the single tailed whips made an interesting sound, no way no how would they ever get near my body. We joked that I was growing my own anyway. My hair is very very long - down to the middle of my thighs when loose and when braided to the bottom of my butt. We're were going to tie a snappy to it but never got around to it.

We had a good time. I don't know if we'll go back to this event next year, I would but I don't know if R would but it was an enjoyable weekend.

Camping trip is almost here

So our first kinky camping trip is almost here. We leave tomorrow. It's clothing optional - no we still haven't decided it we're going clothing free. More than likely my shyness will keep my clothing on. R suggested skinny dipping first and see if I can "bare" it. Yes, I just gave him that look too. There are going to be several demo's going on during the day, they haven't said what they are going to be about but I'm sure they will be interesting. Plus there is going to be a wedding and a formal collaring ceremony on Saturday. So it will be a very full camping trip.

We'll have to get an early start back on Sunday since we have a wedding to go to in the afternoon. But I'm hoping to beautiful weather, not to get a sunburn and to a have a great time.

Missing him

R has been working a lot lately so we haven't been able to spend much time together. I get home from work and he leaves about 10 minutes later. The evenings have been very lonely. He's been able to call me on the phone and talk for a few minutes each evening but it's not the same as being together at home. Even when we're not in the same room at home, I know he is still here in the house and I can just walk into the other room to see him. Touch him, kiss him, tell him I love him. I know that this time apart will only last a few more days but remember to cherish the time you have together with the one you love.

When he's frustrated

So I need to remember when R is frustrated and offers to spank me, my answer should be "No, thank you." He had received calls to go to Joplin, MO, this is where the tornado hit and destroyed a third of the town (so far the death count is 89), but since he had 4 assignments set up for Monday morning he couldn't go. He was trying to find other photographers to go in his place and I was trying to help by finding phone numbers, sending text (because he doesn't text) and send facebook messages ( no facebook page either).

Got one agency taken care off and in the mean time, another one called for him to go. So the search was on again to find another photographer (one that he trusts to do a good job) to go. By this time it was very late in the evening and we hadn't had dinner, showered and I think he just really needed to take his frustration out on someone or something - my backside.

When he offered to spank me, I knew that you needed to work off some frustration so of course I said yes. He at least let us shower before he started in on me. Wow, can he smack when he wants too. Normally he is gentler but not Sunday night. He worked out his needs on my backside, back, thighs. He didn't leave any bruises but I'm still a little tender. I'm glad I could help him relieve his stress but next time I might suggest something else.

The Dye Job

So I dyed my hair Saturday morning while R was out of town. He kept pointing out the few gray hairs I had in my hair, so I thought fine I'll get rid of them. I didn't want something drastic or noticeable just something to cover the few gray hairs.

Now I have never dyed my hair before, back in the early 80's when "frosting" was all the thing, I did have that done. So dying my hair was a new experience for me. Boy it is messy and smelly. Ruined a towel from the dye. Rubbed this form into my dry hair and then had to let it set for 25 minutes. What are you suppose to do for 25 minutes with dye in your hair? If it touches anything it will turn it whatever color you are dying your hair. So I'm walking around the house naked for 25 minutes, the cats don't even want anything to do with me because I stink.

Finally I get to rinse my hair out, I decide the kitchen sink is the best place to do this, as I don't want this dye in the shower or on the rest of my body. The little that got in the bathroom sink was a bitch to get clean. Hair rinsed (and I have a lot of it- it's very long, down to the middle of my thighs). I can finally shower and see what it's going to look like.

I'm a little shocked when I look in the mirror, my hair looks black. My hair is dark brown. But it doesn't look bad. I dry it a little with the hair dryer and go meet my Mom. She doesn't even notice. I finally have to tell her. She says it looks great.

R gets home late Saturday afternoon, I know he is tired. He doesn't say anything. Nothing all day Sunday. Finally Sunday night while I'm getting ready for bed, I ask him, do you notice anything different about me?

R says , "No."

I tell him I colored my hair.

R says, "Why'd you do that? You didn't have that many gray hairs."

I really wanted to smack him at this point. He was the one the kept pointing them out to me.

Men!