Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Rosy Checks

So its been a fairly quite January for us.  We've both had colds then the flu so not much spanking.  Sunday we were getting ready to go out in the afternoon and I had just gotten out of the shower.  I was bent over drying my hair with the hair dryer and the next thing I know R is spanking my bottom.

Ouch!  Hey that hurts.  R said it's suppose to hurt and laughs his evil laugh.  I'm still trying to dry my hair.  So I turn the hair dryer on him.  He just keeps on swatting me.  Playing my butt like bongos.  I'm walking forward the whole time, trying to get away from him but since I have the hair dryer I can't go far.  I lefts me get to the end of the cord and stops.  Walks off, so I go back to where I was and continue to dry my hair.  Yes, I am still bent over (stupid me).  Then his back and it starts all over, once he has my bottom all nice and rosy, he laughs some more and off to the shower he goes.  I guess he is feeling better.

I'll have to make  sure to wait until he gets in the shower before starting to dry my hair from now on.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

So does a cold count as something NEW?

So I gave R my cold.  I'm not sure if I should count that as the doing something NEW for January.  LOL  I'm sure he doesn't think it should be counted.  I feel really sorry that he caught it, I'm still trying to get over it myself.  At least he works from home and is able to take naps.

We did actually try something new this year, R bought me a glass dildo for Christmas.  It is clear glass with a raised blue twist around it.  Can I say WOW.  Very nice and a wonderful surprise.  He used it on me after I serviced him and he spanked me.  It was very cold at first but soon warmed up.  As he had total control of it movement,  he teased me a lot before letting me have an orgasm.  It was a great start to the New Year.

I hope he starts feeling better soon so we can try the butt plugs he promised to try new.  So maybe it will be more than one thing a month.  LOL

He does plan on spanking me after he feels better for giving him my cold.  I don't think that is fair as I didn't do it on purpose, he just picked up my germs.  But life isn't always fair.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Making R waiting 6 days into the New Year

So R has been really horny because I've been sick and unable to see to his needs.  But yesterday I was feeling better and don't think he didn't realize it.  He didn't even give me a spanking (and I really wanted one).  He talked about using the butt plug for the first time but he just wanted a good old fashion fuck.  Poor guy hadn't gotten an since December 24th.  I started getting sick on December 26th.

He's promised me that I'll be going over his knee to make up for all the time off this past couple of weeks.  It's not like I wanted to get sick, it just happened.  I didn't get the new canes ordered for Christmas but I'm going to order them this week so they are here by the end of the month.  That will make him happy. 

We finally got the Christmas tree down yesterday also.  Yeah, longest it's ever been up.  We bought a new one this year so it was really pretty to have it up that long.

R and I talked a lot over New Year's Eve after our guest left, he was feeling very good and very talkative.  So I'm suppose to write a fantasy for him that I want to come true.  He really doesn't like to tie me up but I love the loss of control so that is what I think I'm going to focus on, so maybe he will understand better my need to give up complete control to him.  Because I still find myself holding back and not giving in, letting go. 

Guess I'm still scared to give up that last bit of control even after 24 years of marriage.  I guess that loss of control as a child and being abused still has a hold on me and I need and want to let it go.  But I need R's help make it happen. 

Wish me luck.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

One Word

Happy New Year! 

I hope everyone has a wonderful 2012.  We are going to try to make 2012 special for ourselves as 2011 was not a good year for us on the family side.  We lost family members on both sides of the family.  I cut off family members after taking abuse from them for way to long.  So 2012 is a bright shiny New Year and we're going to try to make it special in little ways each month.  We haven't decided how we are going to do this yet but we are going to do 1 thing special each month for/with each other.

Last night we had good friends over for the evening and what better way to start the New Year.  One of them was talking about New Years Resolutions.  That a friend of his wasn't going for a statement but a word.  So we all talked about what word we would want for us in 2012.

I choose "serenity" for my word.  I want peacefulness, calmness in my life for 2012.  So that is what I'm going to strive for in 2012. 

After everyone left R and I talked until 3 in the morning about what else we wanted for 2012.  Fitness and a healthier lifestyle being a big one.  So we are going to try to achieve that in 2012.  Both of us need to lose weight, both of us need to exercise and both of us need to center ourselves with mediation.

So begins another year for us as a couple, as a Top & Bottom, as two people who love each other.  It will be 25 years of marriage this year.  Wow, that is a long time but communication is the key and always being open to the other persons needs.  R has grown over the last several years with my need to be spanked, while he still doesn't understand it, he loves me enough to give me what it need.